Sometimes

artwork by /u/motivatinggiraffe aka Penny Redshaw

Some days I need to remind myself not to give in to my emotions.

Today I won’t be angry. Today I won’t snap. Today I won’t cry. Today I won’t shirk. Today I will be productive and not let anxiety destroy my work ethic or my relationships. Today I will let bygones be bygones, and eventually bygones will actually be bygones and I’ll have let them go with practice.

Usually, if I’m emotionally drained, this is all easier, weirdly enough. And I’m a little drained, not going to lie. I haven’t really been given a rest yet.

Or if I can pour a little of it out, I can deal with all of it easier. It doesn’t threaten to tip over.

To accomplish that, I’m going to make a list of things I get to do if I do what I need to do.

I can:

  • Find an interesting article and write about it
  • Write a poem
  • Work on a composition
  • Play videogames
  • Catch up on Youtube videos
  • Play The Sims/maybe download Sims 4
  • Go to the library and check out books
  • Fiddle with my phone

if I first:

  • Finish my¬†schoolwork
    • Consumer Behavior, then Marketing Consulting, then International Business, then Politics and Literature
  • Finish polishing my resume and apply to the places I wanted to apply to
  • E-mail a company about a misunderstanding

Okay. I can do this.

Life Update

Things I wanted to mention about my life:

– Finally getting off my ass and applying to jobs. I feel like I’ll be able to pick up the pace soon. Revved for success and all that jazz. My current desire to use all of the buzzy idioms I know is indicative of this mindset change. Also, I finally care about school this year after like, a month and a half of being here. Maybe it’s because I’m getting closer to the balance I want. I have to set a few more boundaries, and maybe let a few more things go, but overall I’m less stressed than I was earlier this year.

– I want to start making music again, effective immediately when I have time. The last piece I finished was last year, and that’s depressing.

– I’m getting a new phone soon, thank god. I am increasingly feeling unable to deal with my phone, especially since I’m expected to constantly be connected. My boyfriend wants me to get the Moto G, and I actually really like it so I might do that.

Pretty!

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